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Hi. Just in case you didn't know:
During an earlier RSD attack where i believe absolutely everybody hated me I unfriended everybody.

If you are on *key, you received my unfollow & invalidation request probably. I.. would appreciate it if you followed me back.

If you're on Mastodon, or *oma, you might need to unfollow me, invalidate my follow, and then follow me again.

If you do hate me now... that's fine. It was nice knowing you.

These attacks have been getting worse and worse lately. I'm not looking to shed y'all as friends. But I'm at a critical point in my life where I cannot trust anybody, and I've been having mental collapses.. bi-weekly? weekly?

I do feel sorry for the mental instability i placed onto other people. I was in absolutely zero state to control myself, and I felt like my entire world was burning down. I hope you can forgive the discomfort I cause.

I do think that Fedi needs to have a conversation about Administrative burnout and the emotional abuse that users and fellow administrators have with each other. But, it appears I'm not the person that people will listen to for this.

I don't know.

I'd just appreciate having some friends around again, before Kitsu kicks the can.

While you're migrating, please do not harass administrators to approve your application. Fedimaids work hard for little to no money in return, and volunteer countless hours to develop, support, and maintain their community. Chances are, they've already received messages like yours already, leading them to burn out.

Please show them support by remaining kind and patient.

If you know of servers that follow or exceed KitsuCore, please let me know IN DMS. I will investigate them and potentially recommend alternative places to go.

Announcing the Closure of Kitsu

Sorry Fedi. I'm not following the common practices.
At the bottom, you'll hear about my depression getting to a point where I have been considering suicide. Just a warning.

I've had enough bullying and drama. This isn't the kind, safe, wonderful fedi that I knew before.

Users have 3 months to migrate or remove themselves from Kitsu. All data after 3 months will be permanently deleted.

I can't keep you safe anymore, because I cannot keep myself safe.

Maybe I'll reappear. Maybe I won't. I don't fucking know at this point.

Sorry. I know this sucks. It really does. I don't know if you know how hard this hurts me. This is my child.

I'll also be completely halting 10Tails as a company and will file for dissolution when I have the money for it.

You want to stay on an instance that's long ran 2 years? Get your fedimaids to stop treating eachother like shit.

This will also mean I will be dissolving the following instances:
Kitsunes.club, Kitsunes.gay, Headmates.social

The following Services will be dissolved in three months
Relay.kitsu.life kitsu.page, kitsu.blog, Tau, AskHMS

The following Services will be transferred to their operators:
fedi.catboy.agency (to CyberBoy), transfem.social (my 5% ownership going to Amber).

This means my services will be shut down on Nov. 11, 2025.

I will be hosting KitsuDev until the domain expires.

I will be dissolving 10Tails, Inc and will be liquidating my entire stock.

To be frank, shame on all of you, for watching as I am systemically kicked, over and over, and watching me be kicked over and over since December. Fuck everyone who popcorn reacts to the "drama" - which is administrators bullying me, misgendering me. This isn't Drama. This is bullying. I tried to do what I believed in and was left to the fucking side while people used me as a meat shield to quietly do the same thing I did.

I am in need of therapy. I have made calls, multiple times, to crisis networks this year, something I have not done in YEARS. On no other service have I been threatened, systematically misgendered, because I wanted to run a place where I felt safe. For the first time in years, I contemplated actually, seriously killing myself. Recently. That's the mental state I'm currently in.

So i give up. I hate this platform and I hate everybody who stood by and watched.